D e c l a r a t i o n-!

After long and great anticipation.. I have finally DECLARED my major to Language, Literature, and Writing!! I declared a Communication and Theatre Arts minor so I will ultimately be a high school English teacher who also teaches debate and communication classes.. I'm so excited about it and I can't believe I ran away from it and ultimately wasted 2 years of my college career on French/International Trade when this has been my passion all along.

I have always had a passion for writing. To this day I still have old notebooks that are filled from cover-to-cover with just random thoughts, short stories, and essays. I love grammar and word placement, sentence structure, verb tenses, etc. more than anything in this world! I am very articulate and I go around correcting all my friends all of the time. The only reason why I was avoiding this major so much is because teachers in Michigan make around 30,000 dollars! Yes, that's it, and no, I'm not joking! Teachers have such a huge impact on the world and they are paid so little. A few weeks ago I actually got a prophecy that I was going to be a teacher and then I thought about it..... It comes down to faith. Do I really believe God can supply all my needs? DP I really believe that if I seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness all earthly things will be supplied? I was instantly convicted! I do believe those things and I know God will make a way out of no way. Me and my faith are economy and I will do his will..

I'm a teacher!! The reason why I chose high school is because their minds are old enough to retain the knowledge and pay attention and they are young enough to effect and teach new ideas to.

Pray much for Meee :-)

Being Selective-

Men! Oh, don't we women love to hate them. lol No, but seriously men have always been a huge issue in and outside of my family. Most of the men in my family are simply disappointing! Choosing to indulge themselves in drugs, alcohol, jail, or every other woman in America besides their wives.. instead of allowing God to be the head of their lives, establishing themselves in society, and disproving the statistics instead of falling into their evil trap.
-- I really don't want to come off as a "man basher" or anything like that, but it is extremely frustrating!!
I was at Cedar Point yesterday when I was reminded of what I DON'T want my husband to be. (My husband- whether it will eventually be my current boyfriend or not- is always in my prayers! I think about him all the time because I hope he is making choices that will lead to us having a prosperous..harmonious life in the near future..lol I know that may sound weird and I also know God has it all planned out, but its just something that I like to do :-) ). I rehearsed all the negative experiences, specifically that my mom,sister, and I have had with men in the past. I know, I know its not the most pleasant thing to be thinking about..especially while you're at CEDAR POINT!!
One thing I have learned to do when reminiscing on negative situations, such as this, is to assess the situation and how I can prevent it from happening to me. In this situation I can: REFUSE to deal with, let alone date/marry any men who choose to govern themselves in this way!!

THINGS THAT I REFUSE TO DEAL WITH..when it comes to men (not in order)

• A man that is not impressed with the Jesus Christ!! I absolutely have to have a God-fearing, bible-reading man who submits to God no matter what! I want him to know without a shadow of a doubt that God, and maybe even remind me that the God we serve is inexhaustible. I think this narrows the list down a lot because that include a man that: lies, cheats, drinks, smokes, is full of lust, homosexual in any way,prideful, is a thief, jealous,sneaky,angry conniving, etc.
• A man that is not affectionate!! I am one of those "lovey dovey" type girls who loves to be kissed, hugged, and caressed! lol It may have to do with the lack of that from men when I was a child, but either way I love it! And I can't see myself with a man who doesn't show me affection.
• A man that is rude and shrude!! My husband will be a gentleman.My man needs to take care of me. Thoughtfulness is a huge part of love. I obviously want my husband to be in love with me so he needs to be mindful of my needs!
• A man with no patience or easily angered!! Not havin' it.S
• A man that is controlling!! This is probably the most irritating of all. When a man always has to have their way!! I think this is mainly because I was controlled as a child, and my mom was controlled by her husband for so long its something that I can not tolerate in the least bit.
• A man that has NO motivation!!I can not stand laziness! I mean, we are all lazy sometimes but I mean excessive laziness where he has no aspirations to go to school or work or make something of himself. I want him to be intelligent so that we can bounce ideas off of each other and live in WISDOM!!
• A man that is not as selective as I am!! I don't mind a man with a history as long as its a testimony. I don't want a man who is attracted to every woman that he sees. I want him to have standards and goals. I want him to have this same list of things that He doesn't like in a woman so that when we meet He will appreciate me as much as I appreciate Him.

--That is not all, but those are the most important. I know that no one is perfect, but I think selection is the key. As a woman, I don't want to be perceived as "easy" or dating just any man..for the sake of dating him.

I am striving to use wisdom in every aspect of life..including my romantic life. I believe God and I trust His word.

Psalms 37:4 Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart.

Whether or not the Pain Stops..

LIVING FOR GOD IS TOUGH!!! lol. This conclusion is not at all new to me, but I thought Id blog about it because its just on my heart right now.. I was listening to the new Trip Lee album-20/20! It's absolutely amazing!!! I encourage everyone to buy one.. its only about 10 bucks. ( Trip Lee is a gospel rapper for all who don't know. He's young and extremely anointed. He stands out to me because he has such a unique style-southern..smooth) While listening to the c.d I ran across the song - C l i n g to Y o u - It talks about how we as Christians go through those extremely rough times where it gets so hard that the pain is NEARLY unbearable. The song focuses on the fact that instead of praying and asking God for the pain to be taken away, we should seek, trust, and cling to Him more and find rest in his presence alone! Man oh man does that encourage me!!! Just knowing that God would never put us through anything that we couldn't bare...therefore the trial/pain that we're experiencing is there to make patience..and patience leads us into hope...and faith in HIM!! Hallelujah! :-) So when it gets rough.. whether or not the pain stops..we must cling to HIM.. If we never got sick.. how would we know God as a healer? If we never lost..how would we know God as a redeemer?!

The song also addresses the issue of how it seems like the people who are living Holy lives, obeying, fearing and following Him are the ones that are always going through hard times and struggling... Where on the other hand the ones that live recklessly, are not impressed by the glory of God and do not fear Him at all are livin' the good life..chillin' and rollin' in dough.
-- I think about this all the time! It just seems that the righteous are forsaken and the evil are exalted!! Asaph( a psalmist) talks about this in Psalms 73-83! Although I know in the end we will be rewarded with the gift of eternal Life.. Its hard out here man!!! I know that when I continue to cling to Him, and SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM OF GOD, all earthly things WILL be added!
I most definitely will NOT be one of those lukewarm Christians that stop trusting in God when my situation gets rough! Instead I will run toward him FULL FORCE. -BE ENCOURAGED!

*The lyrics to the song will be posted as soon as I find them

M O N E Y

I landed a Temp. position at U of M Hospital! FINALLY!! I worked there last summer as a temp and loved every minute of it..but this summer I'm going to be doing a different job! Lets just pray they keep me in as permanent! They pay really good, so I'm blessed! This position will also give me an oppurtunity to build my resume! I want to work as a SPEECH LANGUAGE PATHOLOGIST at U of M Hospital one day!! This just shows that God truly does hear and answer prayers! I love him so much..! Sometimes I wish I could just reach up and hug God sometimes..lol

So even though I don't start for a week or two, I keep thinking about what I'm going to spend my very first check on!! Yippee!!

1. Pay my tithes- 10% Wouldn't want my money to be cursed

2. Put some in my bank account. I need to save for books for next semester....a birthday present for my Mom and SO..and for my car accident that I got into IN NOVEMBER!!! ( its not HORRIBLE..but still.. I want my car to be flawless)

3. Do a little investing...lol I know NOTHING about true financial investing, but maybe I'll buy a C.D and let my money GROW on me..

4. Buy Hair care products.. Mmm.. I need a new staple Shampoo and Conditioner.. and A Staple Moisturizer..Other than my Mango Butter.. A N Y S U G G E S T I O N S????

5. SHOP!! New spring dresses,flip flops, halters, and Bermuda shorts would be so H-O-T!!

6. Maybe save up for a trip with my besties..:-)

Oh! I am so excited about MONEY,life, and this new JOB!! Thanks for everyone who did pray and encouraged me!!

I want to W O R K!!

Im desperately looking for a job!! I have been ever since the winter semester ended and I keep getting interviews..but nothing is working out in my favor!! I really just want to be a receptionist or a personal assistant...Data entry.. getting people coffee..running errands..answering phones... that sort of thing.. but the economy in Michigan is absolutely horrible!! It is nearly impossible to find a good paying job now-a-days.. and I feel bad because Im relying on my (single) mother! *sigh* and II Thessalonians 2:10 is haunting me..!! If a man doenst work he shouldnt eat! But I know God sees my trying.. Just pray for me guys.. This unemployment world is HARSSHHHH!!!

Oh, Just RELAX!

So I did it! I finally relaxed my hair after 7 horrible, nappy, ugly, unmanageable months!! I thought that I would regret it, but my Godmom did it on Saturday and I love it so much!! My hair feels soft, flowy and lovely. I probably won't ever go back to the "napptural" lifestyle that I was trying to embrace!

Reasons why I relaxed...

• Its easier and cheaper, believe it or not, for me!! I was spending like 40 dollars a week at the salon getting my hair pressed because I cant do it myself and a wash and go for me = this horrible Ben Wallace fro :-(
• I think I'll be able to keep my hair "relaxed and healthy"! I plan on following a regimen similar to the one used by http://www.hairlicious.blogspot.com! Its one the best one that Ive found that caters to healthy and relaxed hair care! ( Thanks girl!!)
• I don't have time!! I don't have time to give my hair the attention that it would need to stay natural! I want to be able to unwrap my hair (from my silk scarf of course) and go!
• I love straight hair!! It just fits my face. Even though I like the picture on my profile, it was relaxed then and I just scrunched it!

I know a lot of people would disagree, but this is just what works best for ME!! Pray that I don't regret this and will be able to accomplish.. RELAXED AND HEALTHY!!

Aww

Listening to random music is my forté. A few days ago while surfing the web and listening to itunes, this song played.. Tears began to trickle down my cheeks..this song truly touches me... I know, I know its OLD!..BUT the lyrics are beautiful. Thought I'd post em.....enjoy!

You think I'd leave your side baby?You know me better than that

You think I'd leave down when your down on your knees? I wouldn't do that

I'll do you right when your wrong If only you could see into me

Oh, when your cold I'll be there to hold you tight to me

When your on the outside baby and you can't get in I will show you,

your so much better than you know When your lost,

when your alone and you can't get back again I will find you darling I'll bring you home

If you want to cry I am here to dry your eyes and in no time you'll be fine

You think I'd leave your side baby You know me better than that

You think I'd leave you down when your down on your kness I wouldn't do that

I'll do you right when your wrong If only you could see into me

Oh when your cold I'll be there To hold you tight to me

Oh when your alone I'l be there by your side baby ♥