Tomorrow is my birthday

Tomorrow is my birthday. 20 is the most awkward age ever to me and I don't really know why. I think because its sounds so weird when you say it. "Twen-ty" lol. I celebrated my birthday on the 25th, so I'm not sure what tomorrows events will entail. My boyfriend sounds like he has a few things up his sleeve, so we shall see. I really hope that this 20th stage in my life completely rocks my world! 19 was great! I learned and grew a lot spiritually and I would never trade that in for anything else in the world. I want this 20th year to help me grow into my individuality even more than I already have. I want to get to the point to where I do what I want and make decisions without feeling that I need to be validated by anyone except for God. I want to be able to shy away from relying on friends and "man" ( not literally but figuratively) for strength! So maybe this 20 thing won't be as bad as I thought...with a little determination I can make 20 HOT.